Sorry I cant give you any great advice but I can tell you that at times in the past I have felt that way also. But my ended in me having a affair on my husband instead of the other way around It has caused so much pain its hard to even put into words. I feel like I can never trust anyone including myself. Sorry I am unable to give you any good advice but just thought I wouldlet you know that there are others out there that feel the same way. Hugs to you!