Thank you for your post. To me, it reminded me of someone who knows what the right answer is and who knows what to do but is also very scared and worried about how he might respond your decision. I generally have a good take on others but I try not to give direct advice unless I feel confident that what I have to offer may change another's life forever. So, here goes - I am breaking the rules. The relationship is toxic. Because of the issues that you both bring to the table, the relationship cannot work. Get out now but wait to tell him until you are back with your family. Then, be careful with meds,,esPecially during your first trimester - they can cause birth defects.

I know you know what the best decision is but maybe you need others to confirm it. Well, here we are saying "run like the wind". Good luck and keep us posted

All my bests-
Daze