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Originally Posted by Darbypar
Yesterday, I went to a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with DID and prescribed Ambiral. I finally accepted that there is a voice in my head that tells me to do bad things to myself and my family. I always thought I had an overactive imagination... I drew a picture of this other person in my head and I almost threw up when I was finished. My husband was quite alarmed especially when I told him that she often tells me to harm our young daughter.
Now, I'm not allowed to drive, be alone, have my credit cards or even know where my medicine is. If I have a headache (which is constantly) I have to show my hubby how many I take. I understand this is for my own good and for the kids, but I hate not having control over anything!
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You did the right thing telling your husband about your thoughts. It is good to have someone on your side. Maybe by sharing your thoughts with your therapist it will enable you to work with your alters. I am somewhat new to my diagnosis but it has eased my mind. It has helped me to recognize that what was a cluster of conflicting and confusing thoughts is actually alters communicating with one another. Now, you may be able to work with them by getting to know them. Take your time and don't worry about the label. We are all different and work with our alters in different ways. One thing I did find is that my ability to work with my alters is the result of the anti anxiety and anti depressant medication I am taking. When I go without for a day or two I start to think at a hundred miles per hour and get stuck, nothings gets done. I hope this helped Take your time,