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Originally Posted by TRNRMOM
Just out of curiosity, I am wanting to hear from those who have been bipolar for many years and whether you feel your symptoms have remained somewhat the same, or have gotten worse with time? I was diagnosed in my 30's, bp2, and have managed the illness quite well in terms of faithfully taking my meds, trying to keep the same bedtime, etc.
i am female, 65 and for me, the symptoms have gotten worse over time; i have greater insight and info. into this disorder yet i find myself much more fragile, vulnerable to stressors, and have a terrible time getting sleep w/o the help of meds. Would love to hear your personal experiences if you've had a diagnosis for more than 20 years.
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I'm pretty sure it's been all my life. I used to black out in rage sometimes, destroying my room at about 14 or 15.. but I think I have other things going on as well. I just got diagnosed months ago after a decade and a half of thinking I was ADHD (and had been diagnosed that).
Maybe I should have been more honest with my counselor, but there are some thoughts and things I just feel I can't say to them. I get really, really violent and angry thoughts that won't go away. Paranoid. I freak out and think everyone in the world is out to get me. I'm pretty sure that's not bipolar, but whatever it is, the meds I'm on don't seem to help because tonight I was fuming over some stupid little thing that was in my head.
I dunno. but this has been pretty much a lifelong thing with periods of normalcy. I've actually calmed down quite a bit since I was younger actually, but still go completely insane once in a while. haha