but CantExplain, Healed84, do you feel that you are unable to forgive anyone? I am not sure that that's valid at all.

I emailed T... having a hard time with this... not having a hard time saying what forgiveness for myself would look like; I can't even get there. Am having a hard time understanding why it's necessary.

She hasn't answered. As the silence grows, I find a growing worry that she's going to boot me. Well, SAWE, if you are OK with the way your life is going, there's nothing that therapy can do for you. yikes........