I don't mean to sound like an ungrateful whiny biatch, but geewhizz, idk what to do with myself... I feel so ordinary and that makes posting here HARD...

It's SO strange, swinging from 1 end of the pendulum to the other, weekly, then daily, then multiple times a day for years, and then all of a sudden SILENCE...

My head is so QUIET... I've had zero symptoms for 3 months now, and while I obviously welcomed the idea of stablity, I just don't know what to do with myself, and like, who is that in the mirror anyway???

Currently at my niece's house, she's going thru her 1st depression and I just couldn't bare to leave her alone with her own thoughts and a 11 month old... (btw she's 23, so we're more like sisters than aunt-niece) So, while it's cool to be taking care of her, and helping out, for some reason I feel like such a fake.

So, uhm, I don't actually know what the point of this post is, maybe it's just to say "I'm still around"... (even tho I don't quite fit anywhere)