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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0
I don't mean to sound like an ungrateful whiny biatch, but geewhizz, idk what to do with myself... I feel so ordinary  and that makes posting here HARD...
It's SO strange, swinging from 1 end of the pendulum to the other, weekly, then daily, then multiple times a day for years, and then all of a sudden SILENCE...
My head is so QUIET... I've had zero symptoms for 3 months now, and while I obviously welcomed the idea of stablity, I just don't know what to do with myself, and like, who is that in the mirror anyway???
Currently at my niece's house, she's going thru her 1st depression and I just couldn't bare to leave her alone with her own thoughts and a 11 month old... (btw she's 23, so we're more like sisters than aunt-niece) So, while it's cool to be taking care of her, and helping out, for some reason I feel like such a fake.
So, uhm, I don't actually know what the point of this post is, maybe it's just to say "I'm still around"... (even tho I don't quite fit anywhere)  |
Do you have any goals you are working toward?
Sometimes I miss the ups and downs, but then I remember that I need to be as stable as possible to achieve my goals (finishing med school and becoming a doctor).
If you are bored, set some goals for yourself to work toward. You will value your stability much more when you are working toward something where you actually NEED to be stable. Does that make sense?
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age: 23
dx: bipolar I, ADHD-C, tourette's syndrome, OCD, trichotillomania, GAD, Social Phobia, BPD, RLS
current meds: depakote (divalproex sodium) 1000mg, abilify (aripiprazole) 4mg, cymbalta (duloxetine) 60mg, dexedrine (dexamphetamine) 35mg, ativan (lorazepam) 1mg prn, iron supplements
past meds: ritalin, adderall, risperdal, geodon, paxil, celexa, zoloft
other: individual talk therapy, CBT, group therapy, couple's therapy, hypnosis
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