Dear T

I'm so scared of getting dependent on you. I wish I could enjoy your kindness and closeness without feeling scared and ashamed of my feelings. Also, I really wish you would sit and cuddle me as well as hold my hand. Often when I'm sitting there I want to lean on you but I'm too afraid of what you might say. I'm guessing you'll want me to sit up, become adult. But I really want to be held.