Hi!
There was a point in my life where I sounded a lot like you do now. Most of the things that people will tell you to do did not help me. Prayed for relief, death, anything. Almost did the car thing, but images of my family made me turn the wheel back at the last second.
It was too late to go to the hospital, so I called a suicide hotline. They put me on hold, seriously! So I got online, which is when I found this community. The people here literally saved my life. I made it through the night and to the hospital the next day.
I've been in and out of here many times over the years, but I come back when I'm feeling really bad, you guys help me get better. That's what this place is about, everyone helping everyone.
So, know that the folks here love you and will do whatever we can to help you get through this. We can do it!