You know yourself pretty well for being 18!!! I'm 34 and I'm just figuring this stuff out. I think at 18 keeping boys out of the picture is a good thing. If you go to school focus on that, and make it the deal. Keep going to therapy and the other stuff will come when you're ready for it. At least you have the sense to know where you are and what you want. I didn't...and I got pregnant at 18. Be selfish...don't worry about the relationships right now. Keep the good friends close, and when you're ready to make more...make more. I've been on pause for 6 years now. In August that will all change because all my kids will be in school. That will be huge for me, as I will have to find ways to get myself out there I guess.