Dear gma45,

I'm afraid I have to agree with Xambgii... You describe racing thoughts to a T, yet you list your mood as depressed. Classic description of bipolar disease. From your reply I assume you have tried therapy? Just my opinion, but I think you should consider psychiatric help. Only a pdoc can diagnose your condition and start you on drug therapy if appropriate. Please believe me, the alternatives are not pleasant.

Whatever you do, please know that it is VERY hard to trust your judgement when you're in a manic state. Please proceed carefully and with guidance along the way.