Thanks, guys. I am still having some physical pain. And, I don't know if this is a dellusion, but I think I passed the remains. Not much to be seen, and I haven't had bleeding at all, but I saw like, pink tissue in the toilet. Like nothing I'd ever seen. Made me sick but I think that's what it was.

I'm still very depressed today, but maybe, a teeny tiny small amount better? It's hard to tell but I'm a lot less angry today.

I believe in God. I keep calling out to him, begging him for help. At the same time, screaming at him...why'd you take my three babies? And, leave me here? So, it's a mix of begging for help and yelling at this point. I can't bring myself to read my bible. I don't want to hear promises right now. I'd rather him take me than leave me here with all this sickness, losing my babies, mentally being unstable...an abusive family. Nobody loves me. I mean, great life to leave me here for.

I hope one day my life will have meaning. A good meaning.

Thank you all for your kindness and support. It's a lifeline in this hard time.