Well di meloria, yes it is simple to state and it CAN be achieved. I used to be that way and I was very organized and I was that way because I realized that it was a part of the goal I had been working towards.

However, this year will mark 5 years that this ability began to change in me. And as you know I suffered a lot of damage to all that I had built up and organized to meet that constant goal. Though I had suffered set backs before in my life, this would prove to be the one that broke the camel's back so to speak. And I was going to become very aware of a disorder called PTSD that resulted in so much change/damage to that fine tuned organized goal oriented person that I was.

I began to say, I can't seem to, I am trying but it isn't working, something is wrong, and all I got as an answer was that I "JUST" had to get over it and deal. And every time I tried to say, I can't seem to do it, I was scorned. I have come to learn after all this time (luckily because of the studies being done) that there is a reason that I could not and still struggle to "JUST". Something in my brain had changed that I was not aware of, but I sure did feel it.

This article is not considering the struggle with mental illness when it talks about a clean house and being more organized that people who do not deal with mental illness can achieve.

However this article can STILL be applied. If I really consider what I HAVE been doing that others around me outside PC do not understand, is I began to have an entirely new goal. And with that NEW goal some of my old goal had to be let go of. And I still wanted my old goal, but in some ways a part of me had been so affected by the trama and the PTSD that I didn't know anymore, and I had truely lost my way around that old goal. This was even harder for those around me to understand and in that I was scorned as well.

What I had to do was make my new goal whether I liked it or not, about understanding what I have and set aside my life to make my life about learning and organizing time to learn and try to treat this new very confusing thing called PTSD. The hardest part of this goal was that no one in my life understood what PTSD meant. None of them understood the tremdous struggle I was trying to sort through in trying to understand and address this PTSD that had been really crippling me in way I could have never imagined.

In time I made a decision that I had to do my best to make my goal about dealing with ME for a change. And that didn't go over very well either. But unfortunately no matter how hard I tried to ignore PTSD, it didn't go away, it actually got worse. So, I had no choice but to set a new goal of buckling down and learning about it and try my best to see if I could work through it. It is the hardest work I have ever done and it is very consuming and extremely difficult without support.

I have been trying to do this for about a year now and the challenge of trying to explain to others that I can't "Just" get over it has been the biggest challenge for me. This is a common complaint and something that needs to be addressed with others who suffer and try to work at recovering. It truely is a must for anyone trying to work through and find a way to recover from PTSD. However this could apply to any disorder to be honest. But at this point I can only comment on my personal battle with my own disorder as it is what I know best.

I am not healed yet, I have more to work on. But what I can say at this point is that I have seen some improvements. I am able to do some cleaning (I could not even do that before) and I do some business and I have noticed an improvement over this time last year (would probably have been more improvement had support been in place). I cannot speak for all those that suffer from PTSD because I have been trying to heal while in a bad situation that does aggrivate the condition, so I know it is taking much longer then it should to work through the PTSD that I deal with.

The hard work comes in identifying all the things that trigger me and there have been a lot of them. And each and every one of them has to be organized and labeled and worked through and each person is going to be different depending on what life they had and what presented this condition of PTSD. However, the symptoms are the same, crippling and exhausting and yes, most people do not understand it, and even for the person who has it, it is very hard to understand. And somehow one of the biggest goals becomes learning all over again how to control emotions. And it does have to be slowly organized and each one has to be slowly worked on and addressed very carefully.

The one thing I do know is that repair and healing can take place, however, it is a slow process and patience is the key. It would be nice if this was truely recognized and again support would also help immensely. And in this article when it talks about working at something until it is now a skill that someone has in their brain is very important to remember. With PTSD it truely can be like starting from scratch. Each emotion along with the chemicals these emotions present to the brain has to be monitored and again slowly learning how to control and maintain that control. It is work and it does take time.

So if you cant seem to "Just" I would say that would be the first goal. And believing the brain CAN learn to "slowly" overcome. But my biggest message, is that it would be much less work if SUPPORT is in place.

Open Eyes