Hello & Welcome, Sorahitoshi!
If you feel unsafe, if you feel like hurting yourself, please call a crisis line:
PsychCentral Help Me
PsychCentral's Suicide and Crisis links page
Online-Only Suicide Help
Doc John's Suicide Resources short list
Metanoia
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK
Common Hotline Phone Numbers – by PsychCentral Staff; primarily US
Lynn P.’s Concise List of Crisis Advice
Sorahitoshi, do you have access to a doctor or clinic? Is there someone in your life with whom you can talk freely without their getting mad or upset?
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My dog

mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.