it's been a while so I just wanted to let everyone know how I'm doing...

I've been removed from flying, but am feeling better overall... I'm on meds throughout the day, and have a lot of anger issues. But, my commander has come to the realization that he has to find a place for me...

So, it looks like I'm make it to retirement... I grind my teeth quite badly. Not drinking as my much as I was, but I still drink...

The more I try to forget the more I remember the things I've done. But, I can't remember day to day stuff...

Overall I'm better, and I look forward to the future...

I do want to thank this forum and everyone here for the help and encouragement to get professional help.

I'll update everyone again in the future.