Dear Mac,
It is good that you did some journal work.... and keep in mind that it does not matter if you cannot read or understand what you wrote.... just as long as you wrote, for your subconscious knows and was relieved by the words that followed.
I am also glad to see that you are still with us here in the flesh.... for I to tried to end it all (a three timer) and I am glad that I did not succeed.... life is getting better for me.
LoVe,
Rhapsody -