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I am not depressed at the moment. I actually feel kinda high (the "ha, reality is weird, let's obsess about meaning of words and symbols and let's go shopping". I guess materialism is satisfactory to me in this state of mind, because it is somehow simple and clear... at least not overly complicated. I guess I need it sometimes).
But all in all, I have bouts of feeling sad. Been working on my thesis and while it is going well, it makes me sad. And at the same time, this gives me cynical satisfaction of being better than others who just don't see we (as humanity) have a problem.
But it's not just the world, it is my life too. Had few deep talks with some of my friends and I think they dug little bit too deep. I guess I realized some things about myself and life, and while it feels enlightening, I feel sad and slightly hurting.
I don't know. I wonder where do I go from here......
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