Self-hate was trained into me. I have never been able to get rid of it.

I have done as much as I can to stay alone. The self hatred is worse around people. Love dogs and cats though, and every wild animal that comes along has a home on this property.

There are no mirrors in this house. The windows are covered.

I have had a couple of friends in my life, but I was an adult before that happened. Mostly, they left me alone which beats what people usually do. I really don't need people to tell me what I 'should be', because I can't be what they want.

If anyone knows how to stop self-hate, I would love to know your methods.