My mornings are always a struggle, even if they are pretty easy struggles at times. Wake up and for 5 minutes feel perfectly normal, groggy of course. Then the next hour or until I get moving I usually fight with general anxiety and minor depressive thoughts.

But here are the two thoughts that I wanted to ask if others ever have. First is my depression's new favorite line "You felt good yesterday? No, you tricked yourself into feeling good, you are truly miserable deep down." Last night I felt very good, and I told myself DO NOT LET YOUR DEPRESSION GIVE YOU THE ILLUSION TOMORROW THAT YOU WERENT FEELING GOOD. Well here I am and the illusion is very strong. Anyone ever get that?

Second one is more of a downer because I feel it plays on the hardest aspect of depression and anxiety: Knowing it doesn't go away quick. The thought I get some mornings is "Okay another day and we will fight ourselves into the light again, but what quality of life is constantly fighting for happiness? Doesn't seem worth it." It's not really suicidal thinking, but its more of that negative outlook on the future, like I will never have any times where I don't need to fight to pull myself into the light. I know from experience this isn't true, but when you are struggling its hard to break these illusions.

Anyone can relate to either of those?