Well, this was one of the reasons I got on this site...to see if there were older SI'rs. I am 52 and started cutting last August while in the hospital...coke tabs. I've moved on to better tools since then, it hasn't happened too often until lately. Now it is much worse. My husband knows now, but has never seen them. I had left my journal open to that page n he read it. He confronted me about it and I lied, then found out how he knew and sort of admitted it. I don't think he has any idea of how to handle it...he has never mentioned it since. He and my T are the only ones that know. I just told my T last week and looking back I can see she was disappointed in me. She asked how deep n I said what's deep, bleeding she said and I thought why would you do it if it didn't bleed. Wonder where it will go next week...
I read the "reasons not to SI" threads and copied some down to read whenever I feel I need to cut again. Reading those positive posts really helped at the time. I've never had good coping skills and not they are destructive.
My T suggested asking someone to take all razors, knives etc. to help hold me accountable. I also have a problem with driving fast - say 90 - 95 when my truck goes 100. how can they help me be accountable unless they take my keys? And so far as the cutting - they can't stop me from buying more if I want. T said at least I would be making it harder to get them and give myself time to get it under control again...an hour at a time or whatever it takes. She is right...I guess I'm just not really to the point of wanting to help myself.