i don't know if all comes out...i don't think it all has too. i have reached a point where i know enough...have talked thru & reasoned & made peace with enough.

it happened. it was real...dissecting another1 or 10 or what ever number of memories isn't going to make a difference in things...it's the quality of healing not the quantity.

every now & then i'll figure out another part of my history..i don't run to the therapist with it..usually i just recognize it & tuck it back away...unless i think it is something that really needs to be handled.

look at it this way..do you recall everything that happened last week? i mean everything. or last month. probably not. so how can you worry about something that happened back many years.

i have pieces of memories..not all of it makes sense...time line wise. that's ok too. i was a kid. trying to figure out what was happening. kids memories as a whole don't always make sense because they are kids...much less when they are being abused. so will i know all the pieces of a specific puzzle memory? probably not.

be gentle. you don't have to recall every single one..in the right order. you will know when you have enough...enough to make peace with yourself.