im not sure what im asking....or how to word it better.

i have some memories that are vague and fragmented and just other weird things that happen that are causing me to wonder if my dad ever sexually abused me. ive always had this discomfort with my dad but i didnt know what it meant and i just stuffed away. its very conflicting because my parents have always been somewhat over the top.....its hard to explain but almost liek they were trying to make up for something. i was never daddy's little princess who was spoiled and had to have the best or anything like that...it was different. again, im not sure how to explain it.

and if im at their house and something comes on the news about a child being sexually abused by their dad or instances like those....he always has to make it VERY well known how gross he thinks that is.

im just curious if i should view those as red flags or if im looking too much into it. just trying to work through my thoughts and get some feedback