i think that the upping of my sertraline from 12.5 mg to 25 mg recently sent me thru the roof last night. well that and my mother. but i've been calmer even with her since before i went up. this last week i've had flu like symptoms, just downright awful. last night was the final straw for me with my mom. i blew up. i attribute most of this to the increase in the sertraline. i think it causes agitation in me, this higher dosage. i haven't raged like this in years. i kicked her car repeatedly. i called her names most people wouldn't ever dream of calling their mother. i feel such extreme hatred re. her. i feel disrespected as an adult, mother to my own children, woman, daughter. it enrages me and i was fueled beyond belief last night.

i wonder how many of us rage because of feeling never good enough. or another constantly crossing our boundary whom we've made for so many years our financial provider and/or emotional 'savior' to to speak.

i'm thinking i need to pull a geographic to get away from her...she triggers me so very badly and i don't feel like i can soar like i need to w/ her so close by. i try setting boundaries and she continually crosses them. i'm tired of it.

can any of you relate to this rage at your parents?