omg and she also looked straight at me in the eyes with this 'i'm in control' vibe eminating from her very existence as she said in response to my asking her to leave my HOME that SHE pays the rent. biotch! so very f*cked up, IMHO to hold that over my head when she knows how hard i struggle trying to be self sufficient (i'm 41, single mom of 2 kids ages 9 and 4). no one else understands how i can feel such hatred for this person. but i do. so very much. i need physical distance. when i lived in MN i was ok for the most part until she visited from OR like every 3 months. omg...my ex was like whoa! she is more subtle in how she reacts and 'rages' but she does it in her own way. only i really see it though, which is the suckish part. then again only she really sees my rages. i see right thru her. she makes me sick. i hope my daughter doesn't feel like that about me from what i've put her thru sometimes (she is 9 and a mini me) nor that she turns out like me. i've come sooo far. i think i may get a tattoo tomorrow or sunday that says 'this too shall pass' or something. wanting slogan ideas. i need inspiration. strength reminders. how far are you from your mom now? i really think i need to make a move...