(((Irish)))
I understand about being on your lonesome and not trusting people enough to journal-that's somewhat funny beings you live on your own.
I never understood masks until recently. I've never intentionally worn a mask because I thought masks were things that complicated issues. I use to be a true believer in meeting things head on but that is probably more exhausting then keeping up a protective cover.
You need to wear a mask in this world. People are so cold, manipulative and competitive. I'm learning to put on a mask only now. I am somewhat dense and it took me awhile to realize I'm an easy target when I put myself out there.
Masks can be good things because people will take advantage of your vulnerabilities.
But you are sad because nobody is seeing the real you behind your mask as you are playing hide and seek.
It would be lovely if people would care enough to try to clear away the weeds to see the beautiful garden but in this world of convenience-people just can't deal with anybody's baggage if they're not going to get something out of it.
Unless you find someone who really, really loves and cares about you. (I hope you do find that someone.)
It's good you're facing up to issues. They're never easy to deal with but if your conscience of them at least you'll understand where certain emotions are coming from. Even if you don't like them or don't know how to change them-you have the advantage of knowing what sources brought them about.
I'm glad you can trust us here on PC enough to vent.
(((((Irish)))))
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