I tried so hard to stay really busy all day today cuz I'm not feeling safe.

tonight I'm home alone. I tried to call the counsellor I talk to at kids help line. I tried 3 times. she wasn't available. so I ended up cutting.

I feel awful. I want to do worse. I tried calling back but can't get through.

I have so much I should be doing but I can't. I'm really far behind at tafe but it's just too hard for me to do any work.

it's not even 10pm but I think they only way I'll stay safe is to go to bed. I just hope I can sleep.