1st suicide attempt at 15, strange invincible bouts, like randomly asking my friends to dare me to run topless, bouts of promiscuity which directly conflicted with my sense of self. Knew something was 'off' but my mom convinced me I was just weak. Then major episodes started after my brother's murder in 2009, after a brief run thru of my history, the pdoc dxd me at my 1st visit in 2010 shortly after my dad died. Even tho I wondered how he could come to that conclusion so swiftly, I didn't doubt him. Finally I made sense...