I have been hospitalized twice. Each time coming out worse then when i went in. I have a pshychiatrist i see that manages my meds & i know i need a therapist too but my home environment is so toxic. The stress at home is so unbearable. To top it off, my husband has his own issues & we argue constantly about everything. I'm beginning to think what i need is a residential place i can go to concentrate on getting out of this pit i'm in and learn how to hope again. I don't want to go to a psych hospital that my insurance company says i can go to that usually involves being placed in a group setting where i'm with other patients that honestly scare the heck out of me. I haven't had any real theraputic results from the hospitals that i've been in. I don't want to feel like i'm in jail. I don't want to feel afraid of the other patients there that are severely mentally ill and i actually feel scared for my life. In my experience in the hospitals that i've been in, i've dealt with staff speaking to me and treating me like i'm a child and ordering me around as if i don't have a mind of my own. I also encountered scary outburst of other patients that scared the heck out of me. All i know is that in the environment i'm in now, i constantly feel like it's a fight to be heard and understood. I don't feel like i can heal in any way and improve my wellness when i contstantly confronted with situations of unbelievable stress from other household members. I can barely take care of myself. How can i cope with taking care of other individuals if i can't take care of myself? I don't know where to turn. I'm terrified of talking with my psychiatrist about this because i'm scared he'll just place me in a hospital like the ones i was already in. I don't know where to turn or where to go for help? Does anyone here have any ideas on an inpatient program that is focused on wellness for mind, body & spirit? I'm at the end of my rope and honestly don't feel any hope in getting better in the situation i'm currently in. I have no family to turn to. I have no financial means other then my husband financially supporting me. I just don't know what to do? Please someone help me.