I've been journaling since I was little! Mostly I use the computer (iPad) now but sometime use pencil/pen & yellow legal pad, which is where I started.
I never delete. And when I started writing I found material even in some of what had seemed crazy to me before! I do let Ts & pdocs occasionally see journal entries, especially around events that figure in later sessions.
I hope you can get to the point where you won't editor yourself, bluemountains. It really does defeat the purpose of providing yourself with a free-for-all place to just let it all out. It really
isn't a dumping ground because this stuff isn't
junk--it's product. Whether its useful product is another question.
If you can, or rather
to whatever degree you can, try to
just do without judging. But understand this isn't finished product, it's "first draft" stuff. You may never do anything else with it, but if you do you want the unjudged raw product to rework later. If you edit it away now, you may be [DELETE]ing the best parts!
If you're so uncomfortable with T seeing the raw stuff that that's why you're savaging it (

), maybe you could just say that it's not something you're comfortable with yet?
Great running into you!

Roadie