I know what you mean about Abilify being a miracle. I felt amazing on it! I do think my weight gain started on it and after a few weeks my p-nurse took me off of it due to edema (my ankles were swollen and super ugly) and she didn't like how high my blood sugar was on it. the positive I take from that experience is that I *know* it's possible for me to feel happy and normal even if I'm not feeling like that now...