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Originally Posted by shezbut
I think that it's wonderful that you've had success in kicking your 55 years of self-hate and SI. Thank you for sharing!
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Originally Posted by shezbut
How did you get to the point above? Was this accomplished by snapping your wrist every time you had negative thoughts, focusing on something else, or believing in a higher power,...?
Personally, I am agnostic. Just curious if your self-acceptance came from something other than religion. Thank you!!
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Hi Shezbut! First of all a slight correction...SU is suicide. I do struggle with self injury (SI) but that has been only since the age of 55. The day I heard that song twice in a row I was thinking about SU. Hearing that I was loved made me realize that I had people in my life who would be devastated if I went through with it so I didn't.
Self worth came slowly through lots of hard work with my T. The self injury? Stopping that is still something I struggle with. I had 1 1/2 years without an incident then SI/d during a personal crisis recently. Most of the time though I work on realizing that the intense emotions are only temporary, that I've felt this way before, and that this emotional state is not going to last forever. I went through a year long DBT program that taught me emotional regualtion and coping skills that was extremely helpful - I definitely recommend it. I don't believe in snapping a rubber band to divert thoughts of SI - pain in order to not cause pain does not make sense to me.
Beliefs? I believe in God. I believe that everything in life happens for a reason. I believe in putting out good karma into the universe. I believe I am a person of worth and dignity. And I'll stop right here before I start writing a sermon! Thanks for asking
