I have been going through a rise and fall of stability and behaviors that are borderline manic. I spent eight months medicated for depression but it is difficult to find time away from work especially when I did not realize any calming or changes from the medicine. I feel like my head is racing all the time and feel like i am struggling to stay above water with my finances and spending. I make enough that I should not be so tight financially. and then there are the sexual thoughts. I abstain but I am still thinking of it all the time and have little to no filter when it comes to men. I am afraid of losing more control and my thoughts turning into actions and possibly placing myself in dangerous situations.