Not quite certain which forum to post this on, but it may fit here.

I think this may just be in my head, but I'm not sure. I've always had low self-esteem, so it's hard to really judge things accurately. I'm not even sure if I want the answer to this, because if it's true, I don't know what to do about it.

I feel disliked here at PC. I feel like no one wants to read my threads. I feel like when my nickname is seen, people want to run away from it and have nothing to do with me. I feel alone here, even when people respond to my posts. I think it parallels my real life. I feel needy, even here. I feel like I need to keep posting and posting and posting to get things out and I'm not getting what I need and I feel rejected because of it. I'm sorry to those who have responded - I do feel very very grateful. Your posts have meant so very much to me. I have needed them.

I don't understand this awful void I feel and why I can't ever fill it. No amount of anything ever seems to fill it. I walk around pretending it doesn't exist, but I literally ache inside. I don't understand how other people function.