I know you are very curious and I want to be as accurate as possible...so I want to wait until I am ready to sit down and write my little shpeel...This is the second time I've tried to reply to this but right now i just can't...

But I promise you within a couple days I will try to respond again.

It's hard for me because I still do not understand my bipolar myself and I am still trying to accept that this is who I am and that I need to constantly monitor myself to keep myself from going crazy. It hurts because I will never know what it's like to feel normal. I will always be asking myself "Am I happy or am I manic?" or "Am I depressed or am I feeling life the way it should be?" I read your questions and thoughts just swarm into my head about the past year after my diagnosis and trying to understand my childhood knowing that this disorder is why I have always felt out of place.

Anyways...I promise I will return and answer your questions.

xoxo
Drskipper