Hi, I need some advice and I can't go to my friends because I know they will judge me so I'm coming here to hopefully get some help. Four years ago I was diagnosed with severe bipolar disorder and was being treated for depression bc of attempts at suicide by taking pills and other self harm. Everyone thinks that four years ago I was "cured" but that isn't the case. Since then I have become addicted to pills, cut, and had an eating disorder. But that isn't what I need advice about. I'm in college and my bipolar has become so horrible I never leave my bed. I know I need to tell my Mom but I don't want people to think I'm a disappointment. I love my college and everyone in it and I don't want to leave but I know I will have to. I know I need help but I don't know what to do and I'm literally crying while typing this bc I can't handle my stupid emotions.