I've been crying for the last 2 days. My face was so puffy yesterday I looked like...well, I don't want to talk sh!+ on anyone or make a racist remark...so let's just say I looked BAD! My attempts at self-help seem to be met with a roadblock at every turn. I start to turn things around and finally push myself to exercise and BAM! Kidney stone (wtf? I'm only 27)
I find out the "miracle drug" Paxil interferes with my insulin regulation AND causes f'ing kidney stones so I have to transition off that and, yay, apparently it's one of the hardest antidepressants to come off of...I am bedridden/ home-hospitalization for the kidney stone and I can't shake the urge to down the bottle of Percs they gave me. My husband is driving himself crazy working multiple jobs AND taking care of me and all my responsibilities for me...and we still have $0 for food, medication, or even the measly Netflix subscription which is my last ditch coping distraction from suicidal thoughts. Why? Why why why. why am I destined to be a burden, always?