I try not to think about this too much. I mean I know how people view my bf and all...but it's kinda getting me down that I have this in my head...

Ok, my bf is completely and totally in love with me. I really don't know if I feel the same way. I like him and am physically attracted to him. He treats me really well, too. I've never been treated this good.

We have a ton of differences, though. He wants kids, I don't (we can't even conceive so that's ok with me). He has no interests and I have so many I can't contain myself! He's quite lazy, too. (He wakes up really late, sleeping 16+ hours a day, takes his meds, watches tv. I make him supper and then it's back to the tv for him.) He has schizoaffective disorder so he has trouble comprehending simple sentences/thoughts/ideas. He isn't careful at all. He has temper tantrums like a 3 year old.

And then the way were were raised are as different as day and night. I have always lived in poverty, him always living in wealth and having everything handed to him.

He is very affectionate...to a fault. Every second of the day that we're in the same general area he has to be hanging on me or something. He says "I love my Sweetpea" about every 5 minutes. It's quite irritating, too. He refuses to do anything without me unless he has to go to partial. It's a struggle to get him to do anything without me.

I am really struggling trying to get some "me" time. I actually beg him and make him go places without me because he's quite...annoying...at times.

I like him a lot. Don't get me wrong. But I don't know if I love him. What's it supposed to feel like???? I've been in love (as I know it to be) many times and it's never been this...emotionless...dull...suttle. We're comfortable together, but there's not that intensity or any feeling that if he wasn't in my life I'd be devastated. Does that mean I don't love him?

And to make matters worse, I don't really enjoy having sex with him. I mean I've never been one to like sex too much with guys in the first place, but if I'm aroused at all I'll leave him watching his tv in the livingroom and go into the bedroom and please myself without saying anything to him about it. Sure, sex with him feels good, but it's like I have no desire to be with anyone when I want to be pleased.

Is there supposed to be some intensity or some kind of urgency when you're in love? I thought it was supposed to be that way but I don't feel any of that with him.

What does that mean?