There was a book. Called "another dirty book." It was a white novel with red lettering. I can see it like it was today. There was a story about a girl who woke up with a penis and had sex with her best friend to see what it was like. He left it in places that I could find it. I feel like there is more. But.. I can't see it.
I think he read it with me. Oh god I feel like I am going to throw up.

I have to look for the book. What if the book is real? What if I find it? Then it is more proof and I don't want the proof. Oh god. Im scared. But I have to. So hard to make myself but I need to know I am not just making it up.

I found it. It was published in 1979. Thats two years before I was born. So it makes sense it was around when I was a little girl..I feel sick.