I just found out that my mother is getting married again to another loser druggie/alcoholic like herself mirery loves company except I'm glad I don't live with them cause all her boyfreinds used to mess with me then she would get mad cause they didn't want to bother with her just mess with me.I dont know why I would hide when I knew she was gonna be comming home last call in N.Y. is 4 am and I knew the travelling time from the bar to home (about10min) I hated to be there, we wouldve had to share a room for 7 or 8 years while waiting for a 2 bedroom apt.but I never made past 4 months I stayed in the shelter system rather then live with that woman.I was homeless on and on for almost 10 years asking her for help is signing a death certificate. I spent most of today journerling I have been doing that for years,Feeling worse after writing most of the day and am following advice I read instead of being impulsive ripping up paper really worked for me but I still feel spacey and stuff and I'm scared to go to sleep cause of bad dreams sounds (silly huh?) thank you