My nurse often asks me about frieinds I could go visit or ring if I want to. Trouble is, I have isolated myself so much that most of the ppl I WAS friends with- I don't even know if they still live in the same houses or have the same ph numbers! If I go through my mobile I see names of many ppl, but off the top of my head the only friends I can really name live at the other end of the country (literally!). My hope is that when I can get out of this current black hole I will have a better ability for keeping in touch with and socialising with my friends. I know that my TRUE friends, who mean the most to me, are the ones that have been there no matter what...it's just a shame they live 2000 odd kms away.
Try to open yourself to the ppl that are there for you, and keep the channels of communication open with acquaintences and other ppl you know. I have found that even if I don't know someone too well, they can always surprise you and in the event of a crisis or something become your next best friend. (A radio presenter who does 'Lovesongs til Midnight' had done heaps of dedications for ex and myself, from before we were married all the way through. When we lost our son 4 yrs ago there was an 'unknown' woman at the funeral that NO-ONE recognised. Turned out she had done her research and found out where and when the funeral was, turned up to support us and is now one of my biggest 'rocks').
*** It's not how MANY friends you have, it is how much they really care for YOU.
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I know that behind every grey cloud there is a silver lining; I just need to be patient enough to find it!!!
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