Four days sober. The initial repulsion to any sort of intoxication is gone. I haven't felt sick at all today. Ate three normal meals. The majority of my thoughts today have been how to get high, especially since I gave all of my stuff to my roommate and I am low on cash until my next paycheck! F**k!! And I had to reschedule tomorrow's appointment with my therapist until Wednesday because I got called into work. Feeling immensely frustrated right now

I need to keep reminding myself that sobriety is beneficial at this stage in my life. I need to find a new job, need to be clean in case I'm going to be drug tested. My mood has improved drastically since I haven't been smoking weed, in as little as four days. I need to keep that in mind. But the heroin, oh my, the heroin. How do I get it out of my head? Tomorrow evening marks a week since I overdosed and the last time I used h. I just want to bask in that blissful glowing high right now