I wouldn't like someone that clingy, either. I need my space, and there's no shame in that. I think you don't love him, but you care about him. That's how I feel about my bf, anyway, and our relationship isn't what I want, either.

Tell me if I'm wrong, but you'd like to move on, find someone who makes you feel good, both about yourself and him. You want someone you feel happy around and get excited about, whom you feel comfortable around, yet you each respect each other's space and take time apart. You share affection, but it's not fake or too sweet or overdone.

My bf has no interest in sex, which I do think is because of a lack of attraction to me, but also I believe him when he says his weight has led to him not having enough energy and stamina to do it. (I wouldn't mind if he showered more often, too.) I want to have a loving partner. However, you say you've always preferred to do it yourself? Some people are like that, because when you masturbate, you're not under any pressure, you don't have to worry about another person, and you know how to please yourself. So, don't feel too bad about that.

That excitement really comes with new love; after a while, you're not giddy and excited, but you settle into a happy comfort. But that doesn't mean you're not in love; it just means your relationship has matured, and you're comfortable with each other.