Hey Rings
So sorry to hear this happened to you. You do know that everything he said to you was a lie? I think you need to seek out the help of a therapist. Your guidance counsellor can point you in the right direction. Are you still in school? If not, do some research in your area. I don't know how it works in your country, but where I'm from under 18 can get free therapy at state run facility. It is very important that you get help asap! The longer you wait, the more it will fester and poisen your mind and body. He was a scummbag piece of s*** that lied, manipulated and abused you. You didn't deserved it, didn't asked for it and don't have to live with it for the rest of you life. But you would have to deal with it. And that is where a therapist is needed.
Most important - YOU ARE NOT DIRTY! Remember that.
Thank you for sharing your story. We are here to support.
(((Rings)))
Ps . I also still sleep with a light on.