if attracting friends means i have to force myself to be all sunny and crap like that then **** that **** i would rather to keep to myself and never seek out friendship if i can't be myself around them, its just another reason why i hate people so much, they say that they're the patient understanding type but that's just a load of ********. in reality they're just like the rest of the people i have encountered: preppy and annoyingly optimistic while never looking out for the underdogs in life so what if i wasn't raised on cloud happy?!?! i was raised on earth which is the most negative planet, im also semi crippled do you honestly think life will get any easier as i grow older and my leg muscles grow more and more worn out? the gloomy types are often the most realistic people you'll ever meet not like those fake sunny minded creeps that go walking around wearing a stupid grin 24/7
you can't fight who you are at the core of your heart just like i cant fight who i am at the core of my heart. our personalities are imprinted at birth and in the end people judge you based on personalities and you're automatically rejected if you dont fit their mold of a perfect friend which is really crazy imo