Dear t,
Last night I slid down hard. I would be ashamed if you read my journal. I am afraid to share all this with you. I am afraid to let you see how up and down I am lately. I don't want you to see how easily I am triggered. I want to be that strong person again. I want to take my secret life back and just show you the ideal me again. I hate being triggered by all this crap at work. I feel like it is stealing my chance to work on the past - which is what we agreed to start doing. I am just so frustrated and sad right now.
Me.