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Originally Posted by Plutonian
Three days sober. Since I've been detoxing, it's been extremely difficult to sleep, to eat, to get out of bed in the morning to go to work. Last night as I was tossing and turning in my bed, all I could think about was heroin. My dreams when I was briefly sleeping were filled with h: trying to find a dealer, trying to find a place to safely shoot up, etc. The physical symptoms right now are relatively easy to deal with (God knows how many times I've vomited from drug use and just kept going, how many sleepless nights I've spent intoxicated, how many days I've gone without food), but oh my... psychological addictions are so hard to overcome. After I overdosed, I felt an immense repulsion to h. Here I am, almost a week after overdosing and I'm craving it again. Probably because my stomach has finally calmed down enough for me to keep food down: I haven't vomited in over 24 hours and I've had two decent meals today. I absolutely DO NOT want to go back to h, but my mind will not quit thinking about it. I've heard from other users that once you try h, even just once, you will never quit thinking about it. Has anyone here had experience on this front? I'd like to know if this is true  I know that when I used to do cocaine, I didn't really care for it, but I find myself still craving it from time to time, even though I haven't done any in years. I'm wondering if this will be a similar experience? Except my affinity for heroin is (was?) much greater than my affinity for cocaine and other stimulants :\
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Heroin Withdrawal
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For longer term users, that isn't the end of it! This acute withdrawal is followed by a "protracted abstinence syndrome" which can continue for up to 32 weeks afterwards. The symptoms that continue over this time are: restlessness; disturbed sleep patterns; abnormal blood pressure and pulse rate; dilated pupils; feeling cold; irritability; change of personality and feeling; as well as an intense craving for the drug [3].
Often the hardest part of detox is not the withdrawing itself but staying off it altogether. To remain clean, a whole change of life is required. New friends, keeping away from areas where you used to score, and finding things to relieve the boredom and time you would have spent using the drug, are amongst the things that have to change, as well as wanting to stay clean.
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a 12 step program may help you like NA. you would find support there from ppl who have experienced in the past using heroin and how they've successfully stayed clean.
hope this helps and i wish you well.
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