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Originally Posted by Plutonian
Four days sober. The initial repulsion to any sort of intoxication is gone. I haven't felt sick at all today.
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My mood has improved drastically since I haven't been smoking weed, in as little as four days. I need to keep that in mind. But the heroin, oh my, the heroin. How do I get it out of my head? Tomorrow evening marks a week since I overdosed and the last time I used h. I just want to bask in that blissful glowing high right now  |
So maybe it was the weed that caused the problems? Just stick with the h, stay off the weed? Or am I hearing you wrong, I hope.
How
do you get it out of your head? Well, you don't. And that's the truth. The notion that it owns you is going to stick around for awhile, because that's the nature of the addiction beast, whichever breed has you. You've got about the worst.
My long term demons were alcohol & tobacco--but I took a turn with peyote & that could have taken my life.
I'm also recommending madisgram's suggestion of a 12-step such as NA because you'll get the companionship of those you've been there. You'll recognize similar pain, not suffer empty theory. It diverts from h's summons for a bit.
I'm so sorry there's no easier way. Maybe go back and re-read your initial posts, try to remember how bad it was & that you don't want to go through it again. You don't want someone explaining to your grandmother why you're dead. Make the scenarios real.
Come here as often as you want. There's no such thing as too much. Post till your fingers go into spasm. Get out the anger and fear and pain. Get it all out over and over. Someone will listen. Someone listened to us. That's what Doc. John set up Psych Central for and why it's still here. Use it.
So. What's next? It's tough. It's possible. Ready?
Roadie