Hi Sunangel, I am so sorry you are struggling with anxiety and panic right now. So glad you reached out and are here!

I am working on the same. I have been so hard on myself for so long and have such anxiety, my brain automatically goes to "scary" reactions/thinking (= major anxiety/stress). I, too, just wanted to hide out and give up. It's so hard.

I learned with my T as well as through input on PC, because it's been happening for so long, it seems brain pathways just take you to that super hard on yourself thinking. So we have to work to re-route the thinking in our brains.

One of the things I learned from my T is to identify the thoughts that are plaguing me (when I am being hard on myself), and then ask myself and write down my answer:

"what would I tell my best friend in the same situation?"

It is a little difficult at first, because of course you would be totally supportive of your friend(s) but the same for yourself? (seems impossible, right?!) But that is what we are working on (to think of ourselves and treat ourselves like we would our best pals).

After awhile, it sort of sticks, so I am able to be a little more easy on myself / compassionate with myself and not hear the painful / hurtful voices that are there.

Also, I ask myself and write down my answers to: "what is the worst that can happen? can I live through it? what is the most likely outcome?" and then write down the actual outcome, as well.

I am so in support of a healthy workout, as well, but I totally understand when you are stressed out, exhausted, miserable and depressed, a workout can seem like a major undertaking. Just walking from couch to the next room can feel like a major effort.

So in the meantime, every single time you have a distressing thought or incident, ask yourself these questions and write down your answers. Now that I am working with these tools, I am feeling my energy and motivation come back VERY SLOWLY. it doesn't happen overnight.

Also, working with a T can be so beneficial! I wish you all the best!

Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing ((hugs))