Hi KrisAkira, sounds to me like the staff members who were giving you a hard time are pretty much badly-trained bullies, or just totally clueless about the experience of depression. Don't be thinking that just because they work there, and you pay to go there, that they are smarter, better, or even more sane than you...Unfortunately, a lot of folks go into psych-institution work because they can't get work elsewhere...for various reasons including lack of formal education, family "tradition", or even drug or legal offenses on their permanent record.
If you feel you can trust Judy, that she has your best interests in mind and you might even consider her a friend, then u can confide in her when u two are hanging out. You could share this forum thread with her, or just simply start by saying that: I feel teased and bullied when I try to share my biggest inner worries...and it's making me want to keep all my problems inside...to protect myself. " if she is well-trained enough to recognize HER responsibilities as a psych- staff member, she will take you seriously, and she may know a way to stop the teasing. If u have 1 person on your side, that is worth a thousand fair-weather frenemies.
I have real trouble making new friends. The few good friends I do have, including my husband, I met through my work-study jobs in college. I worked at a student gallery and a computer lab because I'm an artist and a computer geek and I met my friends (girl and boy friends) who are into art, computers, and a bunch of other stuff I like too!
Good luck