Jeesh, I don't think I could deal with those feelings!...but I can't deal with most feelings soooo....hehe, not the best to give advice to you obviously! I just wanted to say the way u write about the love feelings you still feel for her is beautiful. You could distract yourself from these feelings by focusing on moving on to find your "True Love". Now you're available to really find it...and that's something to feel excited about, no? You seem real sweet and women looooove that, trust me